Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Well, SO has two sets of orders. He's going to Alabama in January for two months for schooling, and in April, he's going to Japan. But he'll be going alone. In order for us to go, he'd have to be there for the full three years, but for that to happen, he'd have to reenlist. He'd rather not do that to keep his options open. I'm sure he's tired of the army now. As you can imagine, I'm pretty upset about it. He just got back from Iraq last month, and that was the first time he met our son. Now, he's going to be gone again. He left a little while ago to go look at a car for me. He doesn't want to worry about a vehicle for me while he's gone. I don't like cars. And he knows this. I know he's trying to help, but it made me a little more upset. When he got home, he pulled pictures of it up online for me to look at. It doesn't matter if he picked out the vehicle I most want with all the options on it, I probably wouldn't have liked it. The situation bothers me, and I have no control over any of it. The fact that he's picking out a vehicle for me, makes me feel even less in control. I keep repeating a paraphrased Buddha quote to myself in attempt to make myself feel better: life is suffering, but once you realize that life is suffering, you no longer have to suffer. You are free. At that point you realize that life is a theatrical experience and you are just playing your part in the script of life. You are detached. You are, in many respects, awakened.

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